When we found out about these little girls, I started working on a new blog. Not that there’s anything at all wrong with this blog. From this point on our lives will be different, our stories will be different, and our photos will have more little faces in them. Because…we have said “yes” to something sort of crazy and I would like to introduce you to our new blog…
Change December 3, 2010
If we get these two girls, I can’t quite grasp yet how much our lives are going to change. I also can’t quite grasp yet how much I’m going to have to change. I know it will take me some time for me to become the mom I’ll have to be. Moms of two kids can get away with doing things quite differently than moms of four. And I know I won’t automatically become a mom of four overnight. It will be a transformation that will take place over many months….years?
Part of me believes I will rise to the occasion. Is that confidence? Arrogance? Stupidity? But part of me believes there is no way we can do this. I can’t possibly handle all that I’ll have to handle if we adopt two more kids. I’m not organized enough. I’m not patient enough. Can we financially support four kids? Is our marriage strong enough? How will I keep my business going? What about homeschooling? All these fears and questions run through my mind daily.
But…this is the thing that I know. If we are meant to adopt these kids, God will change us. He will make us who we need to be. He will transform us. I have no doubt about that. Will it happen overnight? No way. I believe that God has already seen the family we will become. He sees our whole lives. He sees the future of these girls. He knows the people they will become. He knows it all. And right now, that’s about all that I know. But that’s enough.
Romans 12:2
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
Philippians 1:6
being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.
Ephesians 2:10
For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
Blog neglect December 1, 2010
So long about August, September, and even part of October I was worried about business,or the the lack of it. And then, WHAM! I’m drowning in too many sessions to keep my head above water. Okay, that’s not really true. I am keeping my head above water and keeping up with things fairly well, but this blog is just not a priority right now at all. I think in about a week I’ll be past the holiday craziness. Then I’ll get back to posting photos and other stuff about what our family has been up to. But for now I’m surviving on too much coffee and too little sleep. So check back later. In the meantime, you can fill me in on your holiday craziness.
Just in case you’re wondering… November 25, 2010
…so are we. We don’t know anything new yet about our possible new additions. I’m hoping we’ll know something new next week, but it might be the week after that. In the meantime we wait and hope and pray and think that maybe having just two kids isn’t as crazy as we thought. Because very soon it might be getting just a whole lot crazier.
This week we’ve been thinkin’ pink. November 19, 2010
There’s so much I want to say about this past week, but there’s a limited amount of it that I feel at liberty to talk about openly, especially on this blog. This has been one of the craziest weeks we’ve maybe ever had.
Really all I feel comfortable saying at this time is that there are two little girls, 2 1/2 and 11 months old, who are very likely going to become our kiddos. Shocking, right?! Yeah, you’re telling me.
I can’t get into details online, so please don’t ask. But I’m calling on all of you who believe in the power of prayer to please lift up these girls. They need the forever family that we can provide. They need the wonderful extended family that we have. And they need the support of all of you, our friends. We know this is right. We are scared to death. As you can imagine, there are many uncertainties right now. But eight days ago we knew nothing of them and now, they’re all I can think about. I wanted to wait until things were more set in stone before I brought it up on this blog, but we aren’t really sure when that will be. Please just pray. Thanks.
Two girls… I still can’t wrap my mind around it.
Excerpt November 12, 2010
He makes all things good
He makes all things good
There’s a time to live and a time to die
A time for wonder and to wonder why
‘Cause there is a reason
There is a reason
For the child afraid to close their eyes
The prayers that seem unanswered
There is a reason
There is a reason
Caedmon’s Call “There is a Reason” from their Overdressed CD.
Had a dream about a boat November 11, 2010
The night before last I had a dream that Phillip and I sold our house and bought a boat. We decided we’d live on a boat, debt free. We don’t know anything about boats or water or boating or fishing or any of that stuff. And Phillip thought I was crazy for wanting to live on a boat, but he went along with it anyway. It was crowded.
October 11th November 3, 2010
That’s how far behind I am on putting up photos of these kids of mine. Many mornings before we do much of anything we go outside on the patio and just chill for a little while. I usually drink a cup or two of coffee while Mikey begs me to jump on the trampoline with him, and I usually decline because of the coffee and all. So this is somewhat of a typical morning at our house. Since these pictures were taken Scott has gotten a much needed bath and haircut, the cat has grown and learned to drive a real car, and the chalk has long since washed away.
I’ve got Space Center pictures to put up (which are actually from Oct.1), Children’s Museum pictures, Halloween pictures, and other random pictures. I don’t know when or if they’ll make their way to this blog or not.
But anyway, I hope you enjoy these photos from the morning of October 11th, 2010. By the way, the pictures from this post are from the same morning.
Let the chips fall where they may. October 26, 2010
I have no idea from one week to the next, one month to the next, one day to the next how much money I will bring in. No idea. I can guess. I can plot trends. I can assume. I can pray. But really I have no idea. I may expect nothing and randomly bring in $1000 or more in a couple of days. It’s very nice when that happens, but the opposite often happens too and that’s certainly not as cool.
I no longer get my hopes up when someone says they’re going to call me for pictures. I no longer take it seriously when someone says they’ll be getting that order to me tomorrow. I no longer get giddy when someone tells me I am the perfect person for their wedding…but they just need to check with their fiance first. I just smile, nod, and hope for the best.
Sometimes I think it might be nice to go to a job, do the job, come home, and know that I’ll be getting a predictable paycheck on a predictable day. It would certainly be easier to plan for things. But for the most part I just still can’t believe that I actually get paid to photograph people. I’m able to stay home with my children. I’m able to make my own schedule and be my own boss. I’m able to take vacation whenever I want to. I can work in my pajamas.
I’m having a “let the chips fall where they may” kind of day…week…month. There are an abundance of potentially great opportunities for me right now. Potentially great or potentially nothing. Let the chips fall where they may. Because no matter which way they fall I’ll continue to do what I love to do. I’ll continue to shake my head in disbelief that I get to do it at all. I’ll continue to learn, grow, hone my craft. I’ll never quit doing this as long as God allows me to do it.
Tonight I’m going to bed with several things still up in the air. They’ll either be carried off in the wind or fall in my lap. I have no way of knowing what tomorrow might bring. And that’s more exciting than a predictable paycheck any day.
Not Me Monday! October 25, 2010
Oh how long has it been since I’ve purged my many failures to you lovely people? Too long…much too long. So, let’s get on with it, shall we?
I did NOT wash Jackson’s ipod touch. But even if I had, it would have been his fault, not mine. It’s not my job to check my kids’ pockets before I wash clothes. Oh wait…it is my job? Well, crap! Now you tell me. Anyway, it still works somehow. Go Apple!
I also did not at a wedding this weekend make a young lady feel awkward by asking her if I could take a picture of her haircut with my iphone to show my hairdresser only to realize that I took a video instead and then I didn’t make her feel even more awkward by dragging out the whole experience and asking her if I could try again. Nope, not me! I don’t get a kick out of putting people in awkward situations.
I also did NOT ask a priest if my husband was bothering him. Nor did I take a candid shot of that same priest eating and then say…”I got you!” No…again with the making people uncomfortable thing. I don’t do that. And…I’m not that dorky.
Moving on…
My toes don’t look like this.
Gross, right? Andrea, does that color look familiar?
And I didn’t tell the church organist that the bride had just previously been dipping snuff because why would I do that?! Seriously. But if I had, she would have known I was only joking…I think so anyway. One can’t be too sure about those kinds of things.
And I’m NOT currently eating a cupcake or ten while I stay up way too late editing, blogging, and planning this week of homeschool.
Nope, not me!
Jenny Hintze 